troubles

The snow is finally melting (yesterday the slushyness on the roads, especially in hood river, was a giant disaster). I am so happy. it's raining now.

I am super frustrated right now. Honesty is something which I value in my relationships and someone in one of my most important relationships is blatantly keeping something from me. I don't think that is ok. I am really frustrated and hopefully my explanation of why it is not ok to keep things from me gets through to them, even though they have an extreme anger issue and just got mad at me for being frustrated (b/c the only reason I want to know is "because I'm jealous" wtf? that isn't true, the only reason I would be jealous is b/c ppl are keeping things from me/being sketchy). UGH. SO pissed.
I need to do something to get my mind off of this.

AND one of my letters of rec still isn't in to the LSAC forcing me to ask one of my profs from last quarter to write me a letter which needs to be in by, oh, monday. UGH. This morning is horrible.

The first thought I have waking up (for the last few mornings in a row) is WHAT IF I DON'T GET INTO LAW SCHOOL? such a terrible first thought of the day. It strikes fear into my heart.

Today I need to finish editing my personal and diversity statements. I need to submit applications today and tomorrow.
I need that letter of rec really bad. now.