ever the same

I just realized that all of my [latest] posts say basically the same thing. Haha. SORRY, but everyone is SO sick of hearing about the LSAT (in real life), and I still really need to talk about it ALL the time, since it's the only thing I think about! So blogspot.com, thank you for listening to me vent about this test! And if anyone else is reading then I'm... wait, I'm actually not sorry becuase while you might have to listen to me talk about it in real life, you can close the browser at any time you chose and be exempt from my stress.
<3

cash it all in, give it all up

"I wanna hold you baby right or wrong, Build a world around a country song, Pray a sweet prayer, Follow you there, Down in history...
I wanna love like Johnny and June, rings of fire burnin' with you. I wanna walk the line, walk the line, until the end of time. I wanna love, love ya that much; cash it all in, give it all up. And when you're gone, I wanna go too, like Johnny and June."

such a nice song :)

Today is my dad's birthday!!! We got him a digital video camera to take on his and my uncle Bert's elk hunting trip to Wyoming (or somewhere) this fall! He was really excited about it! Also today: Forgetting Sarah Marshall came out on DVD today. I'm stoked! Joel and I are going to go to Target later (after class, pre-law-club meeting, and tons of studying and video games/homework for him) so we can get it (and project it at the barn tonight) and so I can get the Sex and the City movie (so that I can watch it a million times on Friday afternoon, after my studying, manicure, and tan -- gotta MAJORLY de-stress before this test).

Anyway, I've realized that I think I've "hit the wall" studying for the LSAT. I'm gonna do as well as I can, and that's probably not as good as I wish I could do, but I've been trying SO hard for SO long. I haven't drank in weeks, I study for hours every day, I go to class/tutor sessions/help sessions multiple times every week. I've done just about everything I can at this point. And I guess that if I don't like my score I'll re-take it. And that will suck, but whatever.

Moral of my story: I want to love what I do when I'm older. Even if I don't end up with someone who I love forever with all of me (I really hope that happens) I want to end up doing something that I love forever, with all of me! And the LSAT is the first step in that process! Haha. I'm cool.

LSAT (oh no)

LSAT a week from today. Boo.

I'm sorry to everyone that I've blown off in the last few weeks... This thing is seriously consuming my life (I'm either studying for it, doing the other necessary things in my life, or being so stressed out that I'm freaking out/exhausted). I'll make it up to you after next Saturday.

I've come to the realization that I'm probably pretty ready for this test. I know that I'm not where I want to be (score wise) but even when slowing down and taking un-timed tests I'm still doing basically the same as I would if I were taking it timed (minus the fact that I'm not finishing all of reading comp when I take it timed). So I guess there isn't a lot left for me to do at this point. And, if I don't do as well as I want then I guess I'll be taking it again in December, which will suck, but I want to go to law school and I'll do whatever it takes to get there.

I guess this whole experience has been making me think about why exactly I want to do this whole law school thing (I mean, right now it's honestly ruining my life a little)... I have come up with a lot of good reasons that I'd rather not share on here... But FYI they're legitimate and well thought out. I really want to do this, and I know that I can... eventually.

But today I'm going to study some more, get ready, get dinner and go to the UW vs Stanford football game--my first husky game since freshman year!!! I'm pretty stoked. Then, practice test in the morning, take a break for an hour or so (get some food), grade and go over my test and then the 200 or so pages of reading I need to do before my monday and tuesday English classes... cool! Haha.

don't you wish you were me?

overload

Last night was super relaxing (especially compared to the night before with my major freak out). After a repeat LSAT class/convo with Stephen (my teacher) about the test (next saturday) he suggested that I get a milkshake (since I'm so stressed out I've lost my appetite/have no energy/feel nauseous all the time etc etc). So, I picked up Joel and we went down to Kid Valley. They were closed. Everywhere was closed. We ended up at Haggen Daz on the Ave where I got a $6 chai milkshake that was GROSS. We then went to the asian fish place and got some onion rings that were all batter and no onion. Haha. After eating our gross meal in my car on the ave (classy, I know) we went back to "The Barn" (aka Joel's house) and watched the Office (which Joel had T-Vo-ed) on the boys' huge projector. Amazing.

Today I had to go to a new tutor training session for four hours. I learned about at risk athletes, got a tour of the athletic facilities, learned how to get paid, and learned about the union. It was pretty boring/not useful. I think that all of the really important stuff (the payroll stuff and the NCAA rules about tutoring and the online forms you have to fill out after every session) could have effectively been covered in about an hour. While it was nice that I got paid for all four hours, I hated my life a little during it. I also hated the 25 min walk back after (oh PS thanks sister Kylee for our starbucks date and then driving me down to the session this morning when it was cold and rainy, love u!). I did learn though, that since I am an employee of the UW I can get a faculty parking pass (haha sweet). Too bad it wouldn't be worth it just for my job! I guess the long walks will do me good!

Now tonight Joel and I are going to see Burn After Reading at Lincoln Squares with our free movie tickets, which we acquired after the last time we went to see a movie there--Pineapple Express--and the lights shut off with like 20 minutes left in the movie... I still don't know how that ended... Either way, I'm pretty stoked for tonight.

Tomorrow is the UW vs Stanford FB game, and the first college/UW football game I've been to since my freshman year (when I hated my life becuase everyone else was prefunking when I didn't drink and it made me feel terrible). Although I'm not prefunking this game (LSAT in a week.. alcohol makes me retarted) I might hit up a few tailgaits and get some snacks! So everyone deck themselves out in their purple and yellow and watch the game at 7pm (you can look for me on the TV)! It should be a good one considering our coach who sucks at coaching here used to be the coach at stanford where he had a ton of success... drama drama! Should be good! Go Dawgs!

early morning

This morning I watched Joe before school (Claire leaves for school/the bus early now that she's in middle school). I was really tired, I can't remember the last time I got up at 6:15 to go to work (or just in general), spring quarter? The worst part was: I didn't get paid. I think Dian forgot... I need to e-mail her about that ASAP.

While dropping Joe off at school/waiting for the bell/watching him do monkey bars for 10 minutes, I watched this poor dog have a seizure for like 5 minutes! I literally thought it was going to die. I felt so bad for the dog (and all of the small children around it)... But much to my (and everyone else who was watching) surprise, when the poor pooch's owner was brought over she didn't seem to care. Now, I know that I'm not the hugest animal fan, but still! If you have a pet you should at least care enough about it to be concerned when something like that happens, especially when you're in front of hundreds of children and their parents/nannys!!!

After the playground disaster I met Joel at starbucks on the Ave for a coffee date. He had an 8:30 this morning and got out of class early, so it worked out perfectly. Sicne the starbucks on 42nd and the Ave is right next to the Ave Copy Center I was able to buy my last book/course pack for this quarter before stopping by Bartell's so Joel could pick up some pencils. I hate buying school supplies/books... it's always so expensive. Thankfully I only ended up spending like $150 this quarter (yay half.com --the best place to buy books they don't have used at the bookstore).

I realize that this post really isn't that interesting for anyone else, so I'm gonna go shower!


Oh! Goal: Lose like 5(ish) more lbs (which won't be hard if I stay at this level of stressed-out-ness (you know, stressed out to the point of loss of appetite)!) and buy some really skinny jeans and rock them, yesss!

UGG boots and Backpacks

The first day of fall quarter means that today I got to put on my UGG boots and backpack, fill my Holstein's coffee cup and walk to class (of course my first class wasn't until 1:30, you've gotta love being a senior ahead in credits). I arrive at my first class (English 422 or something, AKA Arthurian Legends) to find a graduate student informing us that our teacher couldn't make it to the first day of class (emergency situation) and filling us in on how crazy he is. That's just great. Along with the fact that our old [fucking crazy] neighbor (one of the "Quagneau's"--her name is Lucy and I had one other class with her, she used a fake accent and would not shutup/stop sucking up the entire time) is in my class, sitting RIGHT next to me in the front row, I have a crazy teacher. I mean, I knew he was a little nuts because Kirsten took this class with him last quarter (she 4.0ed it, and I'm always looking for a GPA boost) and she filled me in a little about him, but still. Anyway so I got out of class after only 12 minutes of getting a reading handout and the syllabus, neither of which were stapled. On the walk home it started raining (it would). So, I busted out my juicy umbrella and made my way back. I need to waterproof my UGGs again ASAP. I also need to finish my practice test NOW. Oh and did I mention that I GET to wake up in the morning and babysit Claire and Joe at 7am (they needed someone to fill in... booo to me for agreeing). On the bright side (or maybe not, maybe just on another note), today was my last first day of fall quarter as a "college" (undergrad) student. Weird. I feel old.

vomit

worst feeling ever: knowing something bad is about to happen and having to wait for it. I feel sick.

what do I do? I can't concentrate.
I'm freaking out.

help
help
help
(please)

I want to be back home.

intelligent

I just read on MSNBC that Seattle is the smartest city in the nation.
That makes me happy.
(we would be)

painful

So,
today I got a massage (b/c my back has been KILLING me... literally SO SO painful) at SpaScotta. It was a therapy massage to try and fix my back/muscle problems so I won't constantly be in pain. So I am stoked to go get my massage, I get there, it's super super nice, I am getting more stoked, I go in the room, get undressed, lay down on the heated table under the cover and then started to get massaged. Oh. My. Gosh. it was the most painful thing EVER. It hurt SO bad. It was an hour of HELL. And then the lady preceeded to tell me that two of the muscles in my butt were stuck together or something (which I don't understand how that can happen...) and that's why/because my pelvis was shifting and causing my back to go into spasm. (and she told me that I should stretch/exercise more and it made me feel bad about myself) Now afterwards I'm super sore.

After my massage I went across the street to Uvillage to the new H&M! Stoked! It was amazing. The one at southcenter isn't as sweet (as the ones in England). I got a sweet native american shirt, a big purse/bag to use as a purse/bag to carry my books to school in, and a bra/underwear. Yay. I guess that made me feel a little better after the massuse was sort of mean to me (I'm sorry but I do exercise and stretch... she asked me if I walked ever... um YES a lot, every day thanks) Boo.

Now Erin and I are skipping LSAT class in favor of going tomorrow. We did just take the practice test yesterday and haven't really had time to go over it yet, so whatev. Oh, and I need to watch last night's episode of the Hills ASAP.

we love boys and booze

prefunk at Annie's and Leslie's apartment!

The boys serenading our new ZTA freshmen!

The AfterParty!!!

the after after party at Pikes :):)

I love the first day back after "no boys no booze"/rush!!
it's full of good memories every year!

bid day

So, sorority rush is finally over and now it's bid day! I can't wait until all of our new girls get here. I'm sort of upset that one of my good friends from High School (who I preffed here) isn't going to be here today... but I guess there isn't anything I can do about that now. I think that more than anything I'm just frustrated at a few conversations I overheard/heard about. But, overall I guess things turned out well because we have a new pledge class of 35 (super cute super awesome girls)!!! It was more than we expected, and we don't really know how we're gonna fit in everyone, but I guess it will all work out :)
AND I'm done with sorority rush FOREVER! Now I have Presentation night to look forward to! And no boys no booze ending tomorrow!! Yay! and then graduation haha... wow, I'm old!
Also, I NEED to hit up the H&M in Uvill ASAP! It's like 30 seconds from my house and I'm so so so excited! Maybe I'll go after I shower today!

when it rains...

how come everything always goes to shit all at once?

but,
after getting yelled at by Sandy at the review last night Steven was uber nice tonight...
he bought me a latte (no one else... just me, and he kept bringing it up in class to make points about logical reasoning questions, obvi)
and then he ordered the whole class pizza
and then he gave me a chocolate bar (again, no one else) b/c he wanted me to be happy/awake for sorority things tonight.
we're obviously in love. hahaha.

I don't like to be a giant complainer, but I feel sick, my back hurts, my boyfriend is a tool, rush is killing me slowly, and there are enormous spiders (nightmares) on the porch.

seriously, "when it rains it pours" (not a huge fan of cliches but I'm tired).
I need to go to the doctor/chiropractor/masseuse about this back thing.

mentor

also...
today I found out that I got paired with an EOP minority student to mentor fall quarter (whoo). I'm excited! I got a billion paperwork attachments and a little bio about her. apparently she loves biology and she wanted to be paired with a native american mentor. I wonder if she will be disappointed? I'm not your typical native america. that's so not my fault though.

maybe she loves coffee and fro-yo too? I will find some way to win her over :) i'm good at things like that, sometimes.

what a day

today:
-1st day of rush
-I love floating
-the lady doing the LSAT review bitched me out for like 10 minutes for sending ONE discreet text message and then felt bad an had a 10 minute conversation with me after class... BOO!
-my back hurts
-my brain hurts
-my teeth hurt
-my face sucks
-my boyfriend blows
-I am afraid of the spiders on the sleeping porch

let the love tear us apart!

rush starts: TOMORROW!

I am: floater

I've got my sugar free mints, my note cards, my lip gloss, a pen, and a box which needs to be assembled ASAP and taken downstairs.

I don't think I can go home home until Saturday after Rush. Sunday BID DAY, Monday LSAT review, Tuesday LSAT class, Wednesday nada, Thursday PRESENTATION NIGHT (the night where the new freshmen get presented at ZTAs to the whole world, also the night where we get dressed up in cocktail dresses and take professional pictures and then go to dinner. Seniors are going to greenlake bar and grill then garage barring (prefunk meeting the new girls parents ha), presentation then EARL's on the ave!) and I cannot miss that night, then Saturday morning is Abbey's 3rd (Madeline themed) Birthday party!!! Hopefully I can take a practice test before Presentation. So so much to do.

Also, I just got into an Arthurian Legends class for Fall quarter. So right now I'm taking two 400 level English classes, and a 3 credit seminar about my future or something. I might drop that if I get a minority EOP student to mentor though :)
= the end is nearing

My parents went to the redwoods this weekend. I wish I were home to throw a JORTS party. I wonder if Jim had one without me while they were gone? It should be a tradition! The one last year leaves my heart scattered with delicious memories. And also some kind of terrible ones (fatty!). But whatever! :):)

Anyway. Time to LSAT it up some more before bed! Need to raise that score two more points before the next test! Whoo!

no boys no booze

this whole no boys no booze thing started yesterday and I already can't wait for it to be over with. I also finished moving everything out of Alpha Delts yesterday (sad!). I miss living there, in my own space, and not being told what to do. Haha, it's the little things that make me happy. Although, because we didn't have internet at ZTA until last night (late last night for me because my computer freaked out and didn't want to work) I've got a lot of LSAT sudying done, which is super cool.

3 days until RUSH!

Oh and you should listen to "lets dance to joy division" by the Wombats... it's putting me in a good mood today!