ugh to the millionth

fml
after like 3 hours of sleep I am up and ready to go to work (and by ready, I mean dreading this and pissed at Carin for asking me to work at 7:30am instead of my scheduled 1.
christmas party at brian and chris's was a success - I'm thankful I got to spend christmas with friends
however, my 3 hrs of sleep yeilded nothing but restlessness and nightmares, boo.
(I am obviously sleep-deprived-grumpy) so I'm sorry for my rant

Let's go slowly, discouraged,
Distant from other interests
On your favorite weekend ending
This love's for gentlemen only
That's with the fortunate only
No I gotta be someone else
These days it comes it comes it comes it comes it comes and goes

oh christmas

merry christmas everyone!

yesterday I worked at Ground and then stopped by Brian's Pourhouse for the christmas gathering. I had a drink and got a sweet hat and some socks from the owner <3 yay.

After that I came home and had dinner with my family and then we opened gifts. we had a really small christmas this year which was good :)

my parents bought me a 5th of crown for christmas... hummmm what do you think that means? and a meat tenderizer haha. double wow.

brother Jim got me a french press, which I really really wanted. yay!

It was a good night.

this morning I slept in because my mom had to work so we're not doing anything as a family really. When I woke up I went to Ground and met Jessie. We had coffee and breakfast sandwiches. yummy. peppermint/white chocolate mocha!

I came home and now have two pumpkin cheesecakes in the oven. I will leave one with my dad and brother and take the other one to Brian (my old boss's house) for their christmas gathering. Hooray.

I have to work too early in the morning. But it's all good. I need the dolla dolla bills. ha. gangster.

anyway like I said before: merry christmas everyone. I hope you have joy and love in your hearts today.

today (and tomorrow and the next day and basically every day this week minus christmas) I am working at Ground. Whoop. I'm actually pretty excited about it.

yesterday I got to spend the whole day with my favorite, Emma! we christmas shopped, ate good food and watched movies! fun fun!

today after work I get to have lounge night with jessie and heather! I am SO stoked! I <3 them! and it will be nice to eat some vegan/gluten and refined sugar free food! Jessie is an awesome cook!

<3

because I want to, not because I have to

went to a white elephant christmas party at one of my classmate's house last night then to sister kylee's then to cha cha's with kylee, noelle and nathan. good times.

I offended my friend by telling him I hunt.

then I asked a random boy to make out with me to prove a point when the bar was closing. he wouldn't. he was creepy and at the bar alone. fml.

now I have capitol hill hotdog reminents all over my apartment... I think my body was so happy to have the meat and carbs and cream cheese that it didn't even make me hungover today. I'm so glad I got to introduce sister kylee to the magic that is hotdog stands! so effing delicious.

now my day: breakfast with John Tjfkdlasjl, u vill with erica, dinner with Leslie, Kristen's christmas party with sister Erin. Fun fun. Home tomorrow.

I am going to miss my apartment, SO much. ugh.

but! reading because I want to, not because I have to will start soon! win.

so accomplished ha

I finally finished finals today. Whoop! Done with my first semester of law school. After I went to lunch with a bunch of people from school, had two beers (finally!! haha! Then I came home, tried to take a nap, couldn't (I think my life is overstimulated, I barely slept last night either... wtf?). So I decided to get up and take a power shower. But in the place of the standard beer (who wants to be normal?) I drank a sugar free redbull and now I'm powering through. I got ready and I'm set to go out. Whoop. I hope tonight holds some good times because there are so so many possibilities. haha.

I want your love, love love love I want your love. ra ra ah ah ah mama ma ma ma ra ra oh lala... :)

farewell for now, coffee shop love

sitting at Zoka for the last time this finals week. tomorrow at promptly 12:30pm (after a 4 hour long criminal law final) I will be done with round one of law school finals.

I did, however, buy some of their holiday blend to take home to the parents house. It is my new favorite thing as I'm sure you all know.

I'll miss the random cute boys I make awkward eye contact with here. Until then maybe I can make not so awkward eye contact with boys who want to learn my name ;) hah. I have high hopes for my life.

I can't wait to see my friends from home.

I am a little disappointed, though, by the fact that I won't be able to attend Dane's memorial. It's at 2pm tomorrow in Hood River. Sad day for many reasons.

speaking of home, apparently people have been talking. my mom called me yesterday to tell me that she heard (from someone I don't even know) that I'm dating my ex HS boyfriend. un-true. weird how people talk. Ha.

Well, maybe I should get up, go home and let one of the lingerers have my chair/table here.

xxoo.

I ♥ the manchild behind the bar at Zoka who has the largest, thickest, most OUT OF CONTROL mustache I have EVER seen, and who is dancing sporadically to death cab. You, stranger, just made my day

zoka and civ pro

I am once again in Wallingford at Zoka. Black, french press Holiday Blend = love.

the combo of studying civil procedure (and by studying I mean re-learning/learning for the first time a whole semester's worth of the rules of how to "fight") and sitting here makes me want to quit law school and go back into food service. Food service = good money, mostly good people and happiness, well mostly happiness. It is so much easier and so much more fun. A little less "prestigious" but who really cares at this point?

life plan needs to get put into action...

I have a feeling that if I work at either of my old food service jobs over Christmas break I'll be longing once again for long days spent in front of my computer/reading case books. I always think that life would be so much better on the other side of the fence.

Ok back to work.

want

but probably in a different color, nix the belt.

also: the word "wiener"

haha

next

I am avoiding studying for my civil procedure final at all costs. today I had my property final. it went ok, I think. The multiple choice was kind of hard for me, essays were better. Crossing my fingers for at least a C. Stupid law school grading curve. I guess at least this means that not everyone will fail civ pro - it does have an up side. ha.

it is snowing in hood river. jealous.

I want to go to the movies at home. a lot. haha. I just want to do lots of fun things. and read books. I want to read because I want to (not because I have to) soo bad. I've been craving novels. I will be hitting up barnes and nobel soon.

today I talked to heather on the phone. we talked about NYE. I was reminded that I need to find a boy to kiss at midnight. FML. haha.

I wasn't very good at vegan/gluten free/no refined sugar today. I ate ice cream. Oops. and a cookie thanks to the law school, but that was more out of famish/hunger after the final than actually wanting to eat a cookie. whatevs.

big bang in a few.

like I said, avoiding studying. my brain is done with law school. haha.

worst week

I am having a horrible past few days. Finals plus a ton of sadness stemming from people at home. Unfortunate events.

rest in peace, Dane. we'll miss you.

chani, I'll be praying for you.

grandma, I hope you get better :(

but... here is a cute picture from the University of Pheonix employee holiday party last night (to lighten the mood). I went with Cameron, did karaoke and hung out with his co-worker's BFF/dates (making new friends, yeah).

1L advice for over achievers

I am going to give everyone a little piece of advice, which I know most of you probably won't take. If you're thinking of going to law school because "it sounds like a good idea" or "being a lawyer will make me rich" or "it's better than not going to law school" it's NOT. Don't do it. I know everyone says that, but there is a REASON everyone says that.

I'll admit that most of the time it's not that bad, if you don't mind doing tons of reading and not really having a social life (although I've managed to get my shit done most of the time and spend friday nights or saturdays with friends). The classes are sometimes terrible, I don't think anyone enjoys Socratic method - it's never fun to get called out in front of your peers and not have an answer - and the reading is usually long and tedious. However, it wasn't until finals that I realized how terrible law school really is. Anxiety, sadness and the feeling of inadequacy have set in, for almost everyone (I think).

If after this spiel you think I'm crazy and law school still sounds like a good idea for one of your terrible "reasons" then take the LSAT. If you find that at all terrible, you're only getting a glimpse of what the next three years of your life will be like (I would a million times rather take the LSAT than a law school final - at least you know what to expect from the LSAT and you have adequate time to prepare). If, however, you loved the LSAT experience then maybe you are headed in the right direction....

good luck young children, make good choices.

P.S. Being a lawyer had better be AWESOME... but from what I've heard it's really not... FML.

the best part of my crappy chinese delivery? (I'll give you a hint, it wasn't the gross seafood which totally did not satisfy my craving). The fortune!

"you will win over someone's heart"

that's just what I need. Please, God, let it be someone great. :)

"the spirited law student handbook"

the spirited law student handbook was right. Anxiety, and sadness have set in. I completely blame finals. I, however, do not feel alone in my anxiousness. I have a feeling most of my classmates are in the same boat as me. I just wish they would have told us that law school was all fun and happy hours and days filled with reading and class until finals time. This is the only part that actually matters and it's freaking me out.

Today I have to go watch Abbey and Amelia for a few hours then it's off to final #2: torts. Wish me luck, friends.

There is the hottest man in the Wallingford Zoka right now. I need to figure out a way to make friends/lovers.

finals distraction

hi friends

so I wish I knew what an allergic reaction felt like because I think I may be having a minor one to my vegan and gluten free bread (which is super delicious, thank you great grain bread co). How come I can love it and it doesn't have to love me back?
I guess that is a feeling I possess not only toward my vegan/gluten free bread, but also other things. Other foods, people, straight As...

christmas list

dvd player (mine is dead)
french press
tea kettle
pictures

pre finals

1. torts flash cards for days
2. I want Seattle snow
3. eye twitching and back pain
4. at least no tummy aches
5. gluten free - vegan chocolate chip cookies = best study snack :) thank you Bob's Red Mill mix!
6. Oxygen and Jennifer Lopez romantic comedies make me want your lovin.
7. I have had too much capitol hill hipsters/gay men (I mean random gay men who I don't know and who have no interest in me b/c I have a vag - haha, whiny sorry) in the last two days. I want home. Hood Riverrrrr.
8. I need to go workout today. or early tomorrow. go go.

story of my life

signing while studying: "studying law, makin' a responsible choice for my future... on a Friday night... being a lawyer better be awesome..." - Marshall on How I Met Your Mother

for dinner

spinach and curried sweet potato "quesadilla" with a little vegan cheese, on a gluten free tortilla. yummy.

also, went to the gym tonight.

now making Torts note cards.

I am SO determined to feel great during finals :) happy and healthy is the way to be hooray!

health

So right now, because of the looming anxiety associated with finals, I am doing a vegan, gluten-free, no refined sugar diet. Whoop. I do this in hopes that my tummy will not freak the eff out at the first hint of my nervousness. So far it's going great. I made some super yummy soup last night:

Ingredients:

1 tablespoon extra virgin peanut oil
2 cups chopped onions
1 teaspoon chopped red chili
1 tablespoon grated fresh ginger
1 cup chopped carrots
2 cups chopped sweet potato
1 qt. vegtable stock
2 cups tomato juice
1 cup smooth peanut butter
1 tablespoon sugar

Preparation
Method:

Fry onion and red chili in peanut oil. Add ginger, carrots, sweet potato and stock.

Simmer until all ingredients are cooked and tender and then add tomato juice, peanut butter and sugar.

Bring back to the boil, season and then blend until smooth.

Also, today I had criminal law, civil procedure (which was useless) and soon property for the last time this semester (and criminal law for the last time ever). Tomorrow I have Torts and then I will be done with going to class for the semester. I'm 1/2 way there. Finals, here I come. Now, please don't talk to me for the next two 1/2 weeks :) thanks.

lovelove