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in which I vent, feel free to skip this one:

I woke up this morning when Dustin left for work and I just wasn’t feeling it (and when I say it, I mean today). It’s a bummer to wake up feeling like that, you know? So I got out of bed, tried to shake the feeling, gave Dustin some hugs and a kiss and sent him out the door. Then I made coffee and took a few sips before I just gave up and crawled back into bed and I tried my hardest to go back to sleep for the sole purpose of sleeping the whole day away. It was one of those mornings that I haven’t had in so long. And I promise you I didn’t miss them.

I fell back asleep only to dream that my landlord was tearing the tub out of my house and he found a bunch of dead rats and also a dead raccoon in our wall. I swear I could smell it in my sleep. And then this guy had a key to our house, and I hated it, and then he stole money from me. I hated that too.

I woke up 20 minutes later, potentially feeling worse than before, finished my coffee and forced myself into the shower.

I want to go back to my home. I’m tired of living out of a pile of my things on the floor. I don’t want to be a burden but I also don’t want to vomit from the sheer smell of my home. #conflicted. BTW that happened last week. The vomit. TMI? Sorry.

Oh and let me tell you also that Vegas was just a disaster, you guys. So much drama (stupid ex girlfriends). And I don’t ever want to think about it again. But there were some good Rebeka + Dustin parts (ex: the Viva Elvis Cirque de Soleil show we went to on Friday night, and dancing around by ourselves, and eating crepes) so maybe I’ll blog about them when I’m not so upset about the drama.

Maybe I’m experiencing some post-vacation blues (major sunburn all over my backside, blues). Or maybe it’s the rainy Seattle week blues. Or maybe it’s the displacement. Or maybe it’s just life. But I hope I snap out of it soon.

I lied, here is one vegas picture. Saturday night fun: Have I mentioned lately that he’s the best? He’s holding me together. And I love him for that (and so many other things too). Thanks, you.

transient weeks

Oh friends, I miss blogging. So much. My life has been in chaos lately. Mostly because of the rat which decided its final resting place should be someplace unreachable in my home. I can’t be there. I want to vomit just thinking about it. And our sweet landlord rented us this ozone machine to help with the smell, but when I breath it in (the ozone it produces) I feel like I’m going to die. My lungs are going to collapse or something.

Luckily I have the sweetest boyfriend. He has been letting me stay at his place while the dead smell takes over mine. But living out of a suitcase (really two very large purses), not having my computer desk, and having to share a long apartment key isn’t really fun (even though being near him WAY more often than normal has been nice for my neediness and my heart – Hi Dustin, I like you).

Needless to say, blogging hasn’t happened while I’ve been staying with Dustin and without my desk. But I have some good things to blog about soon. And real, camera pictures from LAW SCHOOL PROM! (which was so good, you guys!).

But to hold you over here are a few pre prom pictures (thanks to IG and my precious iPhone which is always with me, all of the days):

More soon, I promise!