in which we burned things in a livingroom

Last night I went over to Natalie and Brittan's with an envelope containing an almost illegible letter sealed inside. The letter contained all of the negativity I wanted to release from 2013 so I could move into 2014 unburdened and with good intentions.

Natalie and I grabbed burgers from the place across the street, Brittan poured us some drinks and we got down to business. We lit a candle on a baking sheet in their living room and proceeded to talk about all the negative things and let them go. We physically wrote down the things we wanted to release and burned the paper they were written on and in doing that cleared our minds and our hearts and it was all so good.

We agreed that 2013 was definitely a transition year for the three of us. We are still trying to navigate life after law school and get settled into adulthood, meanwhile some of our peers are married, others have or are having babies, some of our friends are single, some have really enviable careers, and others are working multiple part time jobs to fund their dreams. All of the mid-twenty-somethings I know are at such different points right now. It's really beautiful. It's also really hard not to compare yourself to others sometimes. We're all moving forward whether we like it or not and it's really ok that our lives and our relationships and our career paths don't look like everyone else's. It's nice having such wonderful friends who live so near me who are in very similar points of their lives to talk through all of our insecurities.

The other night our friend Lisa was visiting from Philly and we were having drinks and discussing our resolutions for 2014. My resolutions (minus the one where I want to wear sunscreen on my face and chest every day) are inspired by people who are at very different places in their life than me. I want to find something besides my: work, workout, make dinner, read, go to bed, hang with friends routine that fulfills me. I'm not completely sure what that extra something is, but I want to start exploring. I have a few ideas in mind and I'll let you know how they go.

In the mean time, tonight I'm not going to think too much about serious things and instead I'm going to eat pulled pork, see Super Diamond (the Neil Diamond tribute band), wear a beautiful mermaid dress, dance around with some great friends, get a smooch at midnight and drink (too much) champagne. I can't wait! I hope everyone has a safe and wonderful New Year's Eve!

xoxo

nearing the end. THE END, YOU GUYS!

I just had an epiphany, and it might sound a little silly once you hear it, but I’m going to tell you anyway: one week from tomorrow, I’ll be done with class… forever! (I guess I’ll still have bar prep for a few months this summer but I don’t think that counts as school class, you know?)

It’s weird to think about. I have been in school since I was 4 years old. I’m 25 now. 21 years of my life I have been in school, full time. It’s all I’ve ever done. And in a week (+2 weeks of finals) I’ll be done with school, forever. I’ll be receiving a doctorate on May 12th! It’s crazy. How did this happen so fast? In just a few weeks I’ll be: Rebeka Osborne, J.D. – that’s what’s up.

I don’t know why this is just all hitting me now. Probably because I have the 3L-itis, bad. I am lacking the motivation to get me through the end, and I need something, anything to look forward to. I guess the end is that thing.

So, hopefully, the nostalgic value of the fact that I only have 5 more days of class after today will keep me going. Right?

I’m so excited for myself.

I don’t know if you’re supposed to say things like that on the internet, or if that makes me sound like a d-bag, but it’s true. I’m excited.

Bring on the lady suits!

updates and forwardlookings and other things too

When they said that 1L bores you to death, 2L works you to death and 3L scares you to death, they were mostly right. But I also think that 2L is a culmination of bores and works and 3L is a culmination of all of the above. Busy busy and sort of bored (with school) and also scared ish-less of this whole bar/after graduation nonsense. Oh man, this bar stuff (bar applications which are due Monday and bar loans which are SO stressful), and this job stuff (I probably won’t EVER have one **said in my most dramatic voice), it’s overwhelming. That’s what I’ve been worrying about this past week. Bar bar bar, scared.

Oh and also I’ve been worrying about the rat that decided to die in my bathroom under the tiles that cannot be removed. We’re currently waiting for it to decompose. Our landlord dropped off some air fresheners today. Now our house smells like a meadow with a dead rat rotting in the middle of it. Not cute. SO not cute. (also I’m sorry if that was too graphic)

But in the midst of all of that, I do have some exciting things to look forward to over the next few weeks (and that means fun things to blog about, right?). I’m about to tell you about the things I think of when I’m showering and wanting to vomit at the same time:

Law school prom is next Saturday. Dustin is going as my hot date (obviously). We’re staying downtown the night of. All will be good next Saturday evening. First I just need to find a dress. Once this post is sent, I’m going shopping. Which is great, since I’ve been having major shopping urges lately. I think it’s the changing seasons? Hopefully this dress shopping will cure all my urges, and things.

Also, in April (less than three weeks, EEK) Dustin and I are going to Vegas for his friend’s wedding. He booked us a room at ARIA (which supposedly has a rad pool) and it’s supposed to be 80-ish-degrees. I can’t wait for sunshine and warmth and time spent somewhere other than Seattle. Hopefully this makes up for my snowy spring break. I have a feeling it just might!

Oh and also, I went to a long, lazy breakfast at 5 Spot on Queen Anne this morning with my roommate Erin and our sorority sister Kate. I got the smoked salmon and cream cheese scramble. It was good. I recommend for sure.

After breakfast we walked down to Kerry Park (which is like 1/2 block from Kate’s new apartment). It was super gorgeous. I’ll leave you with some pictures of Erin and Kate (from left to right) at the park:

I’m off to go shopping! I hope you all are having wonderful rat-less weekends.